Friday, April 15, 2011


This blog has been going on for almost 1 year, almost 9000 views and I think I can finally say....... I KICKED CANCER ASS!!! There of course are always some variables, and nothing is set in stone, but currently, there are no active cancer cells in my body. Due to the nature of my cancer, this one is definitely one that has a tendency to relapse... so I will continue with a fairly regular regime of followup appointments for the next three years and will have to be vigilant about signs and symptoms (hypochondriac world, here I come...) but balancing that with having a regular sore throat or cough...

Cancer certainly did do a number on kicking my ass though.... It will take a while to regain my energy, feel good, recharge my soul and increase my immunity. It sure puts a few things in priority....

I'm not sure about when to stop this blogging business, as I'm not one for writing a diary, but this process has been a therapeutic one for me. So, my postings may be sporadic.... and fingers crossed that I won't be keeping you up to date on any other news on a regular basis

So to all of you who have been checking in periodically, thank you....

and if this blog ever helps someone down the road understand they are not alone in the evil cancer world, then I hope my experiences help out in some shape or form

F #$%& You Cancer!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Hair obsessed...

So I had my hair cut a little last week to get rid of the q-tip/perm afro I was sporting.... It is a tiny bit better... but still a long way from what I would say is okay....

I much prefer the look below.... now that is an excellent wig and I aspire to have that hair - perhaps a little blonde for me, but long and luscious - thats tequila Barbie beside me (I would love to have her hair too!)

Thursday, March 3, 2011

What to say?

I realize its been a few weeks since the last post, but sometimes I'm not sure what to say when there is some uncertainty and I have to do some processing myself - Jenny and I went to the oncologist appointment last month, where there were highs...lows...peaks and valleys - It was a little like a roller coaster ride, and we left still feeling unclear - It appears that the largest mass that was in my chest (mediastinum) has decreased exponentially, however there is still a pingpong ball remaining.... apparently the million dollar question of whether it is scar tissue....or cancer.... ??
So I requested a PET scan(Positron Emission Tomography), which apparently I qualify for because the mass is bigger than 2cm. PET scans provide information on metabolic activity in the body and can be helpful in establishing whether or not there is active cancer in your body. There is of course pros and cons to this type of scan (as it can produce "false positives" and open a can of worms) So that being said, we decided to pursue the PET scan.
I just returned from Sunnybrook after having this radioactive procedure done (The nurse injects you with a radioactive glucose tracer that runs through your body) It will take some time for "them" (I don't know who "they" are)to interpret the scan - and I won't be meeting my Oncologist until mid April - I am not expecting to have definative results, but it should provide some more pieces to the puzzle
The picture is apparently what a PET scan looks like - I asked to see my own yesterday, but to no avail....
I will keep you posted :)

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Mid Winter Report....

Thank god January is over, that means one step closer to longer days and some sunshine (It seems there hasn’t been a lot of sun over the last month). Don’t get me wrong, I do love the winter, but appreciate the change of seasons even more.

I’ve had an oncologist appointment in January and most recently a CT scan this week – I’m to meet with the doctor again tomorrow and review – The anxiety that accompanies this appointment is like no other – I have fabricated all kinds of scenarios in my mind.

I don’t think I was a “high maintenance” girl before, but I certainly feel like one now – I am obsessed with my ridiculous hair, have acquired an overabundance of hats (my kca being one of my fav’s), have had eyelash extensions, wear more makeup than I ever have (that may come naturally along with the age thing too though) Energy levels are coming back, some days are definitely better than others – but it does take work to build any endurance.

This new cancer club that I have joined reluctantly has had its pros and cons; You know the cons, I'll try and focus on some of the pros....
Once you are in, it is very difficult to get out.
The members are really supportive
"Seize the Day" and "Live for the moment" take on a whole new meaning
You look at your friends and family in a whole new light; They are truly amazing
And finally, I've fallen in love with my husband all over again - I'm not sure how I could have got through this without him...he's awesome

A heartfelt thanks to my very special godmother – (she of course has provided me with guidance in my very strong religious upbringing..haha) She has been very supportive throughout my cancer adventure – she most recently sent me a parcel of 14 pashminas and wine to share with the girls who helped put our house back together so we could move back home – She was so moved by their actions – another amazing person that is in my AMAZING support network – I am one lucky girl to have this and I thank my lucky stars everyday

Friday, January 7, 2011

A new year!!

Here goes 2011.... We were very glad to say goodbye to 2010... and thought it might be nice to have a change of scenery for a few days, so we were fortunate enough to head to Halifax for a few days and try to start the year a little differently. We spent a lovely extra long weekend with our dear friends the Moffatts; ate a little lobster, a little hiking, laughing and watching the entire first season of Modern Family. We went to Peggy's Cove on New Years Day.....I think its one of the most beautiful places in Canada, and was quite tickled that we spent the first day of the new year there...

I have had many requests to see the hair re-growth - As it is coming in (very, very slowly) I am a little more comfortable showing my head - so here you go - its not pretty, so skip over if you don't want to look...

I have an oncologist appt next week, which in turn will start another onslaught of tests and scans - It has been a nice break over the last month from the chaos of cancer.

And finally I want to share one of the most special gestures that a friend did over the holidays - Sherri R had some hats made that signify strength and courage and KICKING CANCER ASS - She gave Riley, Colin and I each a hat and several of my friends also have them - (Colin's does not have a flower) It is so touching and the hats are awesome (as I am so sick of my current collection) Thank you Sherri!!

Best wishes to all in 2011.... Cheers, Kelly xo