Thursday, February 10, 2011

Mid Winter Report....

Thank god January is over, that means one step closer to longer days and some sunshine (It seems there hasn’t been a lot of sun over the last month). Don’t get me wrong, I do love the winter, but appreciate the change of seasons even more.

I’ve had an oncologist appointment in January and most recently a CT scan this week – I’m to meet with the doctor again tomorrow and review – The anxiety that accompanies this appointment is like no other – I have fabricated all kinds of scenarios in my mind.

I don’t think I was a “high maintenance” girl before, but I certainly feel like one now – I am obsessed with my ridiculous hair, have acquired an overabundance of hats (my kca being one of my fav’s), have had eyelash extensions, wear more makeup than I ever have (that may come naturally along with the age thing too though) Energy levels are coming back, some days are definitely better than others – but it does take work to build any endurance.

This new cancer club that I have joined reluctantly has had its pros and cons; You know the cons, I'll try and focus on some of the pros....
Once you are in, it is very difficult to get out.
The members are really supportive
"Seize the Day" and "Live for the moment" take on a whole new meaning
You look at your friends and family in a whole new light; They are truly amazing
And finally, I've fallen in love with my husband all over again - I'm not sure how I could have got through this without him...he's awesome

A heartfelt thanks to my very special godmother – (she of course has provided me with guidance in my very strong religious upbringing..haha) She has been very supportive throughout my cancer adventure – she most recently sent me a parcel of 14 pashminas and wine to share with the girls who helped put our house back together so we could move back home – She was so moved by their actions – another amazing person that is in my AMAZING support network – I am one lucky girl to have this and I thank my lucky stars everyday